New Ring

My new ring. What should I call it?

I am

updating my blog

sleepy

about to have some coffee

wishing it were colder

going to see some art galleries today

broke

happy I only have two days of work next week

curious.

Turin Brakes keep me company in the studio.

Trying out a new technique: Resin!

Miss my husband right now.

Necesito mimos...

Life is so strange

That line sounds so cliche, but I don't know how else to describe how I feel. Without revealing toooo much information, I was just at a meeting where I thought I'd see someone I once knew and am very sad to not see anymore. When the person didn't show up, I began making up a story in my head that told me it was because they knew I'd be at this meeting and, therefore, decided not to go. How juvenile is that? Whether or not that's the case, I still feel a bit of, okay, a LOT of pain about this situation and I really wish it would all just go away, out of my body and mind, and drift off into space and disintegrate and dissolve and be gone forever. But it hasn't and so here I am with triggered feelings and I feel like I'm 9 again at Manette Campos's slumber party where she, Susan Titus, and the rest of the crew all ganged up on me (for reasons I still don't understand) and all I wanted to do was go home and my mom wouldn't pick me up. (sorry, mom, but it's true!) God, this blog sounds pathetic! Anyhow, I really wish sometimes I could go back and do things over, or more than that, I wish people would just SPEAK THE HELL UP and tell me how they feel so I wouldn't go around having to guess all the time at what they want or need. I just might still have this person in my life. Geez. I think I'll take me a bath, put on my pj's, dust off my teddy bear, eat the last spoonful of my Moolenium Crunch ice cream, and cry.

Nice Saturday...

I had such a nice day today.

First, I slept until almost 11, because my adorable husband did some major snoring last night. God love him. But he was kind enough to bring me coffee in bed while we listened to Squeeze. Not really. Anyhow, We then went out for a bike ride and stopped at Waterloo Icehouse for lunch, bought a cd at Waterloo Records, rode to RunTex to pick up my pack for my race tomorrow (poo-heads didn't even have my size shirt I ordered so I got a large for Sean), had a coffee at "Lift", swanky little coffee shop on Lamar downstairs from my dream home/condo, stopped in some nice smelling shop where I tried on some really progressive perfume (has some molecule in it that makes your natural sent come shining through - could be a dangerous thing but I for one am loving how I smell right now), then headed home where I just spent 3 hours in the studio finishing two pieces. They are CUTE and will be on my site tomorrow!

I run my first 5K tomorrow and I'm pretty nervous now that it's only 12 hours away. When we went to RunTex to pick up the packet today all these people were there signing in, and I just felt so scared all of a sudden. I know the race for myself is just to prove that I'm capable, but I couldn't help but feel so SMALL compared to all the other expert runners...jeez. What if I'm the last one to cross the finish line? God I will be so humiliated. I swear... I'll be glad when it's over. I'm heading to Zax after for some migas, baby!

Bought this cd by a band named Turin Brakes...really good stuff and only $2.15! What a bargain!

My eyes hurt

But here I am blogging anyway.

I'm playing baby sitter for my dear friends Christine and Lee while they are out having some much needed fun time at a concert. Their little darlings are fast asleep and I so wish I was cozy in a bed with full body pj's and a teddy bear myself. I will be in a few hours, but for now, it's just me and the computer...

I designed a really nice pendant yesterday. Actually, I don't know if it will be a pendant or not, might be a ring or earrings, but whatever the case I love the design. I'm excited because I discovered a jewelry from Asturias who I really like and saved her to my favorites. Go here:



See if you can find her...she's listed under "seller's favorites" or something like that!

Etsy and Obama

Two of the most glorious events have taken place this week: I'm finally up on Etsy and Barack Obama won the 2008 election!!! I'm takin' my husband out to dinner to celebrate!

Natural Resources

It's funny how when one is down they become the most resourceful. A little over a week ago, I was pretty low, feeling like I was hitting a wall with my jewelry business every where I looked. After pouring out my feelings to my husband, blogger, and a good friend, which is all I really needed to do, I found I had a renewed energy that jolted me into action. I began to re-evaluate my means, saw that I had very little, but enough to get the ball rolling again. I pulled out iWeb 1969, (not really, it's only three years old but compared to iWeb 08 it's pretty ancient now), played around with it until I got something I liked and could live with, got a deal on some business cards, borrowed the camera from school, had to purchase a drive for the smart card but now it works fine, used an image of myself taken by a certain photographer I know (hee hee!), and, voila, the website is up! And I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself for doing all that. Just goes to show...

I wonder if sometimes I'm not turning into one of those "Melliniums", those people that expect everything to happen instantaneously. Like this morning, I went out for my run, and expected to have run 3 miles in 20 minutes. I was only at 1.9. Whatever the case, I don't think I am. Because after that whole experience a week ago, I was gently reminded that small, attainable steps are all that are required, and that the expression slowly but surely was invented for a reason. Last night in the shower, however, I thought, now that I've got the site up, how long is it going to take for people to buy, and I also realized then that it hadn't been a concern of mine at all. All I wanted was to CREATE a website, and wasn't that what it was all about for me anyway? I think so. But now that that thought has creapt into my mind, I hope it doesn't grow and begin to infect me impatience. I really want to stay in today, and let the creative process do it's thang.

I hope whoever reads this is having a beautiful, slowly but surely day...