Natural Resources

It's funny how when one is down they become the most resourceful. A little over a week ago, I was pretty low, feeling like I was hitting a wall with my jewelry business every where I looked. After pouring out my feelings to my husband, blogger, and a good friend, which is all I really needed to do, I found I had a renewed energy that jolted me into action. I began to re-evaluate my means, saw that I had very little, but enough to get the ball rolling again. I pulled out iWeb 1969, (not really, it's only three years old but compared to iWeb 08 it's pretty ancient now), played around with it until I got something I liked and could live with, got a deal on some business cards, borrowed the camera from school, had to purchase a drive for the smart card but now it works fine, used an image of myself taken by a certain photographer I know (hee hee!), and, voila, the website is up! And I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself for doing all that. Just goes to show...

I wonder if sometimes I'm not turning into one of those "Melliniums", those people that expect everything to happen instantaneously. Like this morning, I went out for my run, and expected to have run 3 miles in 20 minutes. I was only at 1.9. Whatever the case, I don't think I am. Because after that whole experience a week ago, I was gently reminded that small, attainable steps are all that are required, and that the expression slowly but surely was invented for a reason. Last night in the shower, however, I thought, now that I've got the site up, how long is it going to take for people to buy, and I also realized then that it hadn't been a concern of mine at all. All I wanted was to CREATE a website, and wasn't that what it was all about for me anyway? I think so. But now that that thought has creapt into my mind, I hope it doesn't grow and begin to infect me impatience. I really want to stay in today, and let the creative process do it's thang.

I hope whoever reads this is having a beautiful, slowly but surely day...