6:20 AM
Can't sleep. Surprise surprise. Stella Grace moving all kindsa weird ways. Tonight she was keeping a beat. Kinda scared me. Felt like a very strong heart beat. I know I cannot feel her heart beat. Sean snoring, bless his heart. And I can't get back to my zzzzz's, bless my heart.
Cristian in town for a few days. Gave Stella the cutest little silver shoes from Baby Gap! (Pictures up soon). Had maternity photos taken by Leah yesterday. Man am I big. I don't just mean in the tummy. I mean AROUND the tummy and in the area directly above... It's no wonder they call that apron to breast-feed in public "Udder Covers", because that's exactly the word that comes to mind when I see those pictures of myself right now! Whew.
I'm 30 weeks, I think. Officially into my third trimester, and just as everyone warned, I am now also officially uncomfortable all of the time. Sleeping has become next to impossible after about 4 hours. My left side sleep position causes my upper left back to ache, as well as my shoulder to go out of socket. My right side sleep position is the most comfortable, but after about an hour, my right shoulder gets a sharp pain that wakes me up. On my back is now out of the question unless I'm semi-propt up and legs positioned like a frogs. Kinda hard to do with big daddy Dickson next me. Bless is heart.
But I love Stella Grace so much. She's already so much fun. I just hope the attempts to sleep on my back in order to be comfortable haven't hurt her, cut off her oxygen supply, damaged her in anyway. I'm looking forward to yoga again and really missing the release it gives me from being stiff and tight. I'm eager for the calm and relaxation it provides, as well as the more decent night's sleep I was getting. I think Stella likes it, too, as she seems calmer and moves around a little less.
The worries about her progress come and go. Lately it's been all about my eating habits. I read the other day in a prenatal yoga book that we "should" (and I put that in quotations to remind me that "should's" are someone else's agendas) eat the way we'll want our children to eat, as they will act when they are born as we do now, and that goes for eating, thinking, our emotional state, etc... Hell, if that's the case, poor little Stella will be a bit unbalanced... She's gonna binge, cry, isolate, have temper tantrums, want to shop excessively, and curse. She'll also be full of gratitude, have compassion, feel joy, be curious, and want to take good care of herself. I guess that's balanced, right?
Sigh...I wish I could just sleep...
Cristian in town for a few days. Gave Stella the cutest little silver shoes from Baby Gap! (Pictures up soon). Had maternity photos taken by Leah yesterday. Man am I big. I don't just mean in the tummy. I mean AROUND the tummy and in the area directly above... It's no wonder they call that apron to breast-feed in public "Udder Covers", because that's exactly the word that comes to mind when I see those pictures of myself right now! Whew.
I'm 30 weeks, I think. Officially into my third trimester, and just as everyone warned, I am now also officially uncomfortable all of the time. Sleeping has become next to impossible after about 4 hours. My left side sleep position causes my upper left back to ache, as well as my shoulder to go out of socket. My right side sleep position is the most comfortable, but after about an hour, my right shoulder gets a sharp pain that wakes me up. On my back is now out of the question unless I'm semi-propt up and legs positioned like a frogs. Kinda hard to do with big daddy Dickson next me. Bless is heart.
But I love Stella Grace so much. She's already so much fun. I just hope the attempts to sleep on my back in order to be comfortable haven't hurt her, cut off her oxygen supply, damaged her in anyway. I'm looking forward to yoga again and really missing the release it gives me from being stiff and tight. I'm eager for the calm and relaxation it provides, as well as the more decent night's sleep I was getting. I think Stella likes it, too, as she seems calmer and moves around a little less.
The worries about her progress come and go. Lately it's been all about my eating habits. I read the other day in a prenatal yoga book that we "should" (and I put that in quotations to remind me that "should's" are someone else's agendas) eat the way we'll want our children to eat, as they will act when they are born as we do now, and that goes for eating, thinking, our emotional state, etc... Hell, if that's the case, poor little Stella will be a bit unbalanced... She's gonna binge, cry, isolate, have temper tantrums, want to shop excessively, and curse. She'll also be full of gratitude, have compassion, feel joy, be curious, and want to take good care of herself. I guess that's balanced, right?
Sigh...I wish I could just sleep...
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